the joy and pain of fostering

This morning I was reading a blog talking about fostering from the perspective of a seventeen year old with 8 foster siblings. Wow. I admire her family so so much.

I guess I haven’t said it on my blog so far, but my family fosters. There’s this stigma around fostering I think, in direct relation to the fact that almost every time you hear about fostering in media it’s about how horrible, and abusive fostering families are, or how people’s kids are being wrongly taken by the state. But in the eight months we’ve had kids in our home I’ve seen a far different side of fostering, the hurt in these kids is unimaginable.

My family has had the great pleasure of meeting, and being around several other christian foster families on the journey. It’s amazing how over the past year such a foster forward culture has taken hold in my church. We went from having one foster home in our church to having four in less than a year. It’s incredible to see what God does for those kids through their ‘temporary families’.

It is also heartbreaking. The system is broken, and the people are broken. When you love and love and love on those kids it seems so hard to let them go back to the family you know has hurt them, or give them up to another foster family, because you know the change will be so hard for them. We’ve had one placement for eight months. We were supposed to have them for maybe a few days. It’s been amazing to be able to look from the moment they entered their first foster home to the week they go back to their family and know that my family has been able to be with them through all of that.

How does it feel to know you’re letting go? It hurts. A lot. But I’m at peace in this right now. It’ll be hard to let them go, but I know God’s plan is good for these kids. We need to remember to pray for the kids, and the parents.  For safe homes, and renewed relationships.

I hope this post has given you insight. If you guys are interested I plan to do more posts like this in the future. And if you enjoyed my content don’t hesitate to comment down below and also follow my blog.

Until next time, Bye!   (Waves from behind screen.)

why I love makeup

Hey Guys!!!

Whats new with you?

Life has been slowing down for me recently, and I’m really glad. In this post I want to talk about my thoughts on makeup and beauty, and also give an explanation of why I’m so into it. So here it goes…

    I don’t look at makeup as a way to improve myself. I see my face as a blank canvas, and makeup as the way to express myself on that canvas. I don’t want to cover myself up, I do makeup for the self expression it allows me. The freedom to do what I want with my face. To then be able to take it off when I’m done, not having to store the finished look. There’s a lot about makeup that appeals to me. I don’t do it for the stereotypical reasons of being insecure in my own skin, or wanting to look perfect. I like art. Makeup is an art. For me it’s fun, a way to express myself, and a huge stress reliever. For me I feel more confident in no makeup with a messy bun than I do in full makeup with my hair down. It’s just who I am. But I love it anyway. Some people don’t understand or accept that, putting pressure on me to fit in, to do makeup the “right way”, or not do makeup at all. I want to be able to share my love of makeup with other people. I don’t think that makeup improves your beauty. I think that beauty isn’t about how others perceive you, but about how God sees you. God sees us as beautiful, when we believe that I think it shows. That’s my opinion, it’s okay if we don’t agree, but before I got too far into my blog I wanted to tell you my opinions and feelings, so we can be on the same page.

     I hope you enjoyed this post! If you did feel free to comment, and follow this blog if you like what you see.

 Until next time, Bye!!!

(Waves from behind screen.)

my new blog

What’s up with you? If you’re here I think you know what’s up with me! Guess what? I re-started my blog, this time with the re-vamp of a makeup/lifestyle sort of theme. And I’m pretty exited about it, honestly I’ve been working on future posts for a couple weeks now, and I think ya’ll are going to enjoy the posts I should have coming! So who exactly is journal of a dreamer, justnotmolly or @not_molly_19? Me of course! I’m a curly-haired, dreamer with a love of creating things. I love to read, write, do makeup, paint, and do pencil sketches. I’m homeschooled, and currently a freshmen in High School. I want to be a social worker after college. For now I’m focusing on school and trying out this whole blogging thing. I’m in several sports, my favorite of which is Basketball. As for other things, I think I’ve covered almost everything already. I hope you guys are as exited to see my content as I am to make it.

 So until next time, bye!

 (Waves from behind screen.)

It’s 2020!!

It’s my first post of 2020. I honestly don’t know what to do with the fact that it’s currently 2020. I really don’t know where 2019 has gone, it doesn’t feel like it should be over yet. That being said, I wanted to start this year off with a little blurb about what I’ve been doing over the past few months, and about my plans for 2020. The last new post I wrote was in mid-October. A lot has changed since then. 

We still have the little dude living with us, though he’s six now. It’s been really fun having a little brother for the past six months. He’s super sweet, and loves hugs literally more than any other person I’ve ever met. He was pretty behind at the beginning of this school year, but my mother has been working with him every day to get him up to the level that he needs to be for his age. He’s really been enjoying being homeschooled, and it’s given our family a lot of freedom to schedule visits and calls with his parents around their work schedules, which means they get to talk more, and is a good thing.

 A couple of weeks ago we got a Great Pyrenees puppy, who I named Jack. He’s not the smartest dog you’ve ever seen, and he keeps trying to play fetch with the outside kitties, which isn’t great, but he’s super sweet, and fluffy. Our whole family really loves Jack. He’s not the best guard dog yet, but his puppy energy, and adorable face is enough to turn every heart in favor of him. Most of my friends are now plotting to also get Great Pyrenees puppies, plans which I hate to say, are all pretty much doomed to failure at the moment.

 I started basketball again, the season started for us in mid-November, and we normally don’t have too many teams to play right at the start of the season. We participated in a tournament during the first week of December, we played pretty well together, and ended up getting third place. I’ve really been enjoying the dynamic of the team a lot more this year. I don’t feel like the disliked new girl anymore, and I’ve actually been making friends, which is something I normally really struggle with. 

 I’m still fifteen, and I’m working on getting all my needed driving hours so that I’m ready to get my license when I turn sixteen in March. I’ve really enjoyed learning how to drive, and I’m excited to get my license in March. It’s exciting to know that getting my license will give me the opportunity to actually get a job, something which is kindof hard without a car, living in the middle of nowhere. It’s really just hard to believe that after this semester I’ll be halfway through highschool, with a drivers license, and possibly a job. It all just seems so crazy to me. 

I’ve been working over the past couple of weeks on some new posts that I’m really excited for. I’m ready to get a fresh start on here coming into 2020. I intend to have things better mapped out from here, in a way that will help me manage my time better, and create quality content. 

Thanks for taking the time to read my work! I appreciate the fact that you stuck around to read the whole post. If you’re interested in seeing more from me you should follow my instagram (@not_molly_19) which is where I post my makeup looks, and also let everyone know when a new post is up on here. Anyway, that’s all for this post. Thanks for reading, bye!