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you aren’t alone.

I was thirteen. Spoiler alert : Nothing good happened the year I was thirteen. My brother died, my mom was recovering from nearly eight months of being so sick she could do barely anything for herself, and I was watching the independence I had accumulated wash away by the day. I felt so alone. LikeContinue reading “you aren’t alone.”

five years later…

I’m not even going to lie and try to pretend that this week has been easy. They say there are some things that you just shouldn’t share on the internet, and perhaps my week of breakdowns, crying in the car, and seeming inability to do anything constitutes one of those things. But this week marksContinue reading “five years later…”

a letter to an older, wiser barista

I ran into you today. It’s been awhile, and I don’t know if you really remember me. And I don’t know that if you do remember me that those memories are fond ones. But I was glad to see you. I hope you’re doing well. I hope your adorable little kid is healthy and happy.Continue reading “a letter to an older, wiser barista”

20 things I’ve realized during high school (mainly about making friends and influencing people.)

(1) Sometimes people just don’t want to be friends, and that doesn’t always have anything to do with you. (aka, it’s a them problem, not a you problem) (2) Just because people claim they care, doesn’t mean they do. But that doesn’t mean that no one ever cares. It’s better to live life and getContinue reading “20 things I’ve realized during high school (mainly about making friends and influencing people.)”

chronic illness and such, take 2

This post is about my thoughts and feeling about trekking through life with chronic illness, and also about being ‘perfect’. For those of you who don’t know, when I was 13 I was diagnosed with sibo, or small intestinal bacterial overgrowth, which is a form of Irritable Bowl Syndrome. I don’t like to talk aboutContinue reading “chronic illness and such, take 2”

the hardest part of foster care

I don’t think it’s much of a surprise that being involved with the foster system is hard. In every capacity it’s emotionally hard, and painful, whether you’re the social worker or judge, bio parents, foster parents, bio siblings who aren’t in the system, and especially as the kid who’s been ripped out of their life,Continue reading “the hardest part of foster care”

sooo… I painted some shoes

So my blogging friend Jasmin (thewriterofletters.wordpress.com you should go check her out!!!) did a post like this a little while ago where she showed how she painted butterflies on her high tops, and when I mentioned that I also like to paint shoes (I have really weird hobbies, I am aware.) she encouraged me toContinue reading “sooo… I painted some shoes”

random stuff about me

This is a post about me. I know that all my posts are about me in general, but this one is specifically about me, because I’m going to spend this whole post telling you some random facts about my life. I don’t really like talking about myself to most other people, but I’ve seen aContinue reading “random stuff about me”

more thoughts about foster-care

Life is pain, highness, anyone who says differently is selling something. Sound familiar? The Princess Bride was the movie of my early life. But some of the best quotes from the movie are the ones that ring most true. Life is pain. Not everything in life is nice, and often, the thingsContinue reading “more thoughts about foster-care”

it’s been one of those days…

Today has been one of those terrible horrible no good very bad days. It started this morning when I woke up. What was the first thing I felt? Sick. Just sick. To top things off my very second act of the day after getting out of bed was to step inContinue reading “it’s been one of those days…”